Selective Amnesia

CHat CHan CHen

Continuing this

me: the creator becomes the created
quite possible
how many times have i become the blog persona
without aiming to be
and without realising that the blog persona is not I and I am not the blog persona
but a few times, the line blurred
6:34 PM and those few times, I conciously decided to lay off
6:35 PM Chenthil: that story was read by me as that he was created by someone else’s thoughts
but what you say is true – blog persona
me: recursive thought forms heh?
he creates a form which creates a form and so forth
6:36 PM but what you say is true – blog persona – seriously
ravikiran is the exact opposite of his blog
atleast tonaly and speech wise
kingsley too
6:37 PM you are not even half as sarcastic as you sound on the blog
but perhaps my perception of you has merged with the reality and all that
6:38 PM Chenthil: I am not, am I not? ye gods so many years of effort all down to this
me: well….
i know 10 people who say I am not my blog
Chenthil: for one, you are black while your blog is white
6:39 PM me: my blog is grey
Chenthil: I am in a cranky mood today, put up with me
me: and i am not referring to colours
yes
cranky i got
i can match your crankiness with my sanity
and still beat you hollow at sounding strange and corny
6:40 PM i am more insane when I am sane
Chenthil: I was in a pissed off mood yesterday while going back home, imagined a wonderful story about a pissed off salesman not looking after his clients and wantedly losing sales – thought through the lines, form of the story and all
6:41 PM then a funny thing happened, the fact that I have a story ready made my mood better, and once my mood became better the story vanished
me:
yes
yes
too many times
that why, i text/sms/email/blog-draft my story ideas
6:42 PM Chenthil: I will write that story – I am thinking of a colelction of salesman stories
me: team up with suman
he was a salesman
he knows he business, the people the thoughts the colours and the flavours
Chenthil: I am a salesman, if you know
me: yeah
i do
6:43 PM but you are a different kind of salesman
and you know, all of us are salesmen
in many ways
and in one important way
Chenthil: and all my stories are going to be autobiographical
agree that all of us are salesmen
me: thats the best story
even the women are salesmen
6:44 PM Chenthil: why even the women – I will send this transcript to Neha and pillory you
me: go ahead
pillory me, postory me
whatever
6:46 PM Chenthil: day before yesterday there was a Tamil blogmeet in Woodlands in the evening – I thought of dropping in. Then thought of my wife waiting at home – I can spend half an hour extra with her. Then analysed why I wanted to attend the meet – to prove to those guys that I too am a tamil blogger, and bask in the adulation
so dropped the idea and went home
me: hmmm
6:47 PM a long time back, i contended that this need for public approval was what got us out of the savannah and on our feet
that was in my stupid, naive, pseudo-intellectual stage
6:48 PM Chenthil: again was thinking why I prefer my wife over blogging – after all it is personal gratification (blogging) over satisfying other person (my wife)
6:49 PM then I got totally confused and simply went home
me:
satisfying your wife is being selfish too
Chenthil: that is where the recursiveness steps in
me: yup
everything is recursive
6:50 PM everything is the matrix…
except I
Chenthil: you can tell that working for Nigerian poor is selfish too because it gratifies your ego
without I matrix will become
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matrx
me: matrx
dude…i am better at this corniness
i’ve you beaten low
so dont even try
6:51 PM unless this is how you gratify your ego
in which case go ahead
Chenthil: check my status
and I am not into SM
6:52 PM me:
6:54 PM there is but one perception…and many realities
6:56 PM Chenthil: you internalised my words
me: what!
no!
Chenthil: i internalised your thoughts into words
and you internalised my words
6:58 PM me: hmmm
have i
6:59 PM Chenthil: my perception says you have
me: reality dictates otherwise
one of the realities atleast
7:00 PM and that ties in neatly with timeline and quantum physics and schrodinger’s cats
the existence of many realities, that is
Chenthil: you know what we should simply piblish this transcript – with no additions / substractions – Chat with Chandra and Chen
7:01 PM and it will become a cult hit
me: i was thinking of the same thing myself
who will do this?
Chenthil: we will publish it ourselves – in student xerox
me: The Chit – (short for culthit)
Chenthil: no, it is too close to Shit
me: CHit – CHat-CHen-CHan
7:02 PM CH….theme
or CHat-CHan-CHen – one letter difference – progression
CHit-becomes CHat become CHan becomes CHen
7:03 PM Chenthil: whatever it is – this is being saved in my mailbox since I am chatting from gmail
me: same here
let’s both blog this at the same time

7:04 PM Chenthil: you crazy. blog such long transcript – no we will put it up somewhere and link to it
me: break it up into two parts
7:05 PM you do the top
and i will do the second half
or whatever
doesnt matter anyways
as long as we get this into public circulation