Selective Amnesia

I am a coroner on myself.

Spiritualists ask you to inquire within “ Who am I?” They promise that the self-realisation that comes out of deep meditation is the gateway to your deliverance. I have failed; I have no clue to know “Who am I? I Hence this open dissection to lay bare myself to the readers of Blog, to let me know “ Who am I?”, and deliver me from my own doubts about me.

At times, I think I am an arrogant, coming out of my self-righteousness May be, too much of my desire to live and demonstrate like a Sagittarian- an archer by definition. Over the years of pressure to live like a Saggi, have I become superior, arrogant, opinionated, bigoted, and so effortlessly self-righteous about every circumstance in life?

I do not like the word “OBVIOUS”. This has become the bane of the general public or the common man. The politicians, have understood very well, that the common man would see only the “Obvious” and not the treacherous game plan or the hidden agenda., that they have drawn. I practise and want to excel contrarian thinking. I would like to attempt the not so obvious plans of the Indian politics.

Those of you, irrespective of your pet subjects, who had read my postings, be it Mumbaikar Vs. Chennaiettes (vasi) or, Cancer in the Indian Cricket, or La affair Ganguly, must have understood the underlying apathy of mine against the selfish, self-absorbed, self-righteous egomaniacs called Politicians. My inability to kindle the public to take a deliberate and blatant stance against prevailing morality, or to create a moral framework for the Politicians, comes out as an outburst in my articles

As a person who had seen life, nurtured 100s of young ones, I had always been popular with the bottom layer staff, in any company I had worked. However, my anger and antagonism or even exhibition of arrogance was directly proportional to the hierarchical structure. While, I could have reacted violently even for a minor misdemeanour of a senior staff, a gross and blatant failure of a low level staff would have raised empathy and viewed sympathetically. I had the belief that, youngsters are here to learn, and the managers are there to teach and correct. Further with low volume of physical work quantum, as against a low level staff, the manager’s salary is high. Thus they should exhibit, demonstrate, and train the lesser elements towards excellence. Thus, on similar lines, my draggers are drawn against the politicians. They decide the fate or life of millions ( or is it billions ?) of common men, they are the flag-bearers of our democracy in International Forum. Am I wrong in carrying cudgels against them?

The self proclaimed magazines will not publish my letters to the public, may be for fear of generating controversies or the view points contradict those of the Editors. Thus, my solace is Blog. If I could find atleast a handful of others, more so youngsters to whom the future belongs, also hold similar views I would be appeased that I am not an aberrant or antithetic in this world, and alone. Till then, my quest to know whether I am an idiocratic loner will remain unanswered.

C Gopalakrishnan